a happy place

i had a swim with my friends today.. water always calms me. people said, those who are born second in the siblings have the element of water, but i don't know wether it is true or not. when i get to know that, i think for a while, maybe it is true. i used to cry a lot when i was growing up and always have been liking the sea, pool or lake. i have this temptation to just walk in the rain while it is raining heavily and feel free to do it without the feeling of guilt if i catch a cold.

so as i swim today, doing laps, in my mind is this song by joshua radin-they bring me to you, because nowadays,it is a song that i really like and hear often. as i swim, i remember everything that ever happen to me that was bad. it was like i push it out of my soul for every stroke i take. it felt good. i was relief.

if people ask me, where is my happy place, it will be anywhere where i can just dive in and float myself.

someone used to teach me about a happy place. it is a place where u will feel save and that whatever bad happen, that place will make it go away. i always thought that the happy place is a place where your heart is, which is next to the person who loves you. but now, i have a different opinion. it is a place where you can find peace and relief.

everyday will be a day where something hazard happen, so when life gets tangled up, i'll just close my eyes imagine that i am in the pool, swimming through it. as one of my indonesian friend used to tell me "kita jalanin aja". living life to the fullest is what i am after. even when in my thought that death awaits.