when you're gone

When reality kicks in..i couldn’t stop thinking of the times when u are still alive and my life was full of hope and dreams..everyday when u were alive, i keep having this repeating image, u verse the akad of taking me as your wife..and our life together as husband and wife..having a child,named aisya binti Alif Abu Bakar and nazeem bin alif abu bakar..i never told u any of this because i want to tell you after the ceremony of our engagement..i want to tell you how i imagine waking up every morning with you by my side, to pray with u as my imam, to cook breakfast,lunch and dinner for you, prepare your shirts before you go to work, see u off to work..how i felt so much love of doing all that for you..then how i imagine,we travel to Australia together because i want to continue doing specialisation there and you can do your photography there..it was my plan,that i want to share with you..how i can have all that hope and dreams line up because i love you so much that everything i dream of has u in it..now you are gone..i don’t know where i’m heading..every morning i wake up, i felt the void within me..when you were alive, the mornings felt alive with so much light..and having to say i love you everyday make my living worth more than i could ever imagine..now..i’m in the dark..i can’t imagine anymore how my life would be like in the future..

When reality kicks in..i couldn’t stop thinking of the times when u are still alive and my life was full of hope and dreams..everyday when u were alive, i keep having this repeating image, u verse the akad of taking me as your wife..and our life together as husband and wife..having a child,named aisya binti Alif Abu Bakar and nazeem bin alif abu bakar..i never told u any of this because i want to tell you after the ceremony of our engagement..i want to tell you how i imagine waking up every morning with you by my side, to pray with u as my imam, to cook breakfast,lunch and dinner for you, prepare your shirts before you go to work, see u off to work..how i felt so much love of doing all that for you..then how i imagine,we travel to Australia together because i want to continue doing specialisation there and you can do your photography there..it was my plan,that i want to share with you..how i can have all that hope and dreams line up because i love you so much that everything i dream of has u in it..now you are gone..i don’t know where i’m heading..every morning i wake up, i felt the void within me..when you were alive, the mornings felt alive with so much light..and having to say i love you everyday make my living worth more than i could ever imagine..now..i’m in the dark..i can’t imagine anymore how my life would be like in the future..

speechless

at this moment..i can't really feel what i should feel..because it is empty.
it is sad..but he lives inside my heart..forever i know he will be..my prayers is with him each day..i pray that he is happy,well there which i know he is..i want to be his angel in heaven.thats my dream..

i miss u sayang..everyday..